It’s getting harder and harder to sleep. I’ve started taking some melatonin before bed, because I’ve heard it’ll help you fall asleep faster and sleep deeper. We’ll see.
It’s just— I can’t close my eyes and feel safe. Nowhere is safe— not my dorm, my room, the couch, nowhere. I have to have a tv on for light and sound, because there are monsters in the shadows.
Monsters and demons and nightmares are hiding in the corners, in my closet, under the bed, under the sink and behind the shower curtain, outside my window and inside the oven.
I’ll stay up all night and then take quick cat naps in the day. It’s safer to sleep in the daylight, when other people are up and around and making noise to reassure me that this, yes, this is real and happening.